Enjoy a few of Pattie’s recent poems:
My husband whistles,
three crows dive to the driveway
for the bitesize pieces
of leftover bread, taco shells, dinner rolls
he tosses into the street.
He places the blue heron statue
flush against the pond to protect
the goldfish from the real bird’s
sharpened yellow beak.
When a Great Blue Heron
in one downward swoop scoops up
the shubunkin goldfish in the pond,
my husband bows his head
heavy with sadness.
In the winter he sets a warming lamp
next to the hummingbird feeder. I
n the weak winter light
two of them flare iridescence
fighting over the feeding holes.
Every night he sleeps
with Eyebrow Bear,
a teddy he rescued mud-caked
but intact, tossed to curb an almost certain end—
a baby proof bear with black stitched eyes
and high-arched brown yarn eyebrows.
A bear so soft and bendable,
the washing machine could not rip
or even ruffle him.
Eyebrow Bear knows inside my husband—
no cotton stuffing —
instead tumbling gems of love.
He doesn’t care that my husband loses words.
Where do all those words go?
On the floor next to where my husband sits,
stands or sleeps? Do they swim
in an unknown pond
treading water until he rescues them?
Why do we even let ourselves love?
Eyebrow Bear will not die,
but my husband will.
In the meantime, I am losing
him inch by inch—
death in slow motion.
And I can’t hold him fast.
“Eyebrow Bear” by Pattie Palmer-Baker won First Prize in Central Oregon Writer’s Guild Contest for Best Poem 2020.
The Air We Breathe
Inhaled you are a silken stream
exhaled, preheated velvet,
a medley of molecules,
a cornucopia of gases, particles,
even black matter —
which is not black and suffuses
the universe with all we cannot understand.
Sometimes something can be seen
through the bay window.
Is that rain? My husband asks.
No, a sort of scintilla,
tiny round speckles of not-nothing
crowding the air,
perhaps drifting souls of dead loved ones.
Have I not felt a whisper
brush my skin? A tingle
I cannot untangle?
If my mother, I would breathe her in.
She would fill me with grace.
“The Air We Breathe” by Pattie Palmer-Baker won Third Prize in Central Oregon Writer’s Guild Contest for Best Poem 2019.
The Moon and I Drive Drunk
pasted in see-through
not quite navy blue
way too big
for the immature sky
not stark white this moon
no not smooth
moony holes patched
with ragged blotches
slides over to the driver’s
then to the left
then can’t be seen
magnet moon adheres
to the windshield
man in the moon
laughs and laughs
offers me a drink
I sip the missing edge
both of us are sliding
off the sky I am drunk
my body shines moonbeams
that slither through the sky
and streak the asphalt
the moon whole
my body stretches
and stretches until the skin
my heart floats out
a new Moon.
The speedometer trembles at one-twenty
but the Cadillac runs smooth, silent
as my father steers left-handed,
his right arm draped
over the top of the front seat.
I want to touch that blond-furred arm,
hold his fingers in my hand’s hollow.
My mother leans to the right,
stares out the front window at the black asphalt
unwinding into the desert’s lusterless gold.
She doesn’t look at him or at me
or at the fifth of whiskey
amber-stilled next to her left foot.
Out the window to the left
a mountain presses purple up up
until lead clouds block the ascension
and through that metallic gray
God shoots silver shafts just for me.
Give me the bottle, Edith,
he says to my mother.
I see the dip of her left shoulder,
hear the slap of the bottle against his hand.
Her gaze never leaves the ochre-scrubbed sand.
He tilts the Jim Beam—
the scorched yellow liquid flows into his mouth.
I hear him gulp and swallow,
I see his fingers tender-curled around the bottle’s neck.
In the mirror his crow’s feet gentle and his dishwater eyes
flash a moment’s burnished blue —
not for my mother not for me not for himself
not for the saffron sand or the purple mountain
but for the brown-gold whiskey.
Out the window—
still purple, the mountain—
and the white-gold slashing the stubborn gray,
not god-painted or angel-mounted—
a trick of the atmosphere,
a sleight of hand.
Published in She Holds the Face of The World: 10 Years of VoiceCatcher, Dec 2015
and VoiceCatcher: a journal of women’s voices and visions, Summer 2013
Nominated for the Pushcart Prize in 2013